Sunday, March 13, 2011

Do over....

Tomorrow is the start of a new week and the beginning of a new start for me. I have big plans for the next few weeks. I hope and pray it all starts out smooth. I'm keeping the Faith that God has bigger and better things for me, I know He will not let me down. I remind myself that as one door closes, another one opens. I try to remember the reason for those doors closing, and it brings me hope that the next door will be a better place for me.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, March 12, 2011


I feel so blessed. It's good to know you have good people in your life when the going gets rough. Sometimes a phone call is all it takes to get you thinking of all the blessings one has.

Having my family and friends is so number one for me. I have made choices in my life that I thought were the right choices for me. Clearly I was wrong. Sometimes they may have even appeared as selfish. And they probably were, but I had to make those choices to get me where I am going. I have learned that I don't want to go there without my Children, Grand kids, family and friends. At one point in my life I thought it was the best thing for me and for them. Boy was I wrong! I'm thankful that I have been given the chance in my loved one's lives to express my love and gratitude to them. I'm glad that I was able to realize how it would have impacted my life had I made the choice to move along my life without these people in it. For some it may come too late. Life can be so confusing sometimes. We are all human and we all make mistakes. Some we can never make right.

Thank you all for being in my life.
God Bless you always.

Friday, March 11, 2011


Out of thoughts for the day. I will attribute it to the fact that I have a cold. My mind is blank, I have overused it this week and I think for tonight I might just watch something completely noneducational on T.V.

Positive is a state of mind. Problem is getting there and staying there. Some days I sit around trying to stay positive and I have come to the conclusion that I'm positively bored out of my mind.

Staying positive takes alot of work. We have to be around positive people. I have looked for a few and find it very difficult. And why is it that when one is positive someone finds the need to rain on your parade? Does misery really love company?

Next week will be better!

Keep the Faith and God Bless you all!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Giving up

Do you ever feel like no matter what you do, things just don't seem to go your way? Is this a feeling we have everyday? Or is it that we have high expectations of what we deserve?

I try not to be needy or greedy. I have always found that I get great pleasure in giving of myself to others. I am greatful for the tiniest things that comes my way. I know that in my past I wanted so much more. Not just for myself, but for my family. I have been unemployed for a few weeks now and come to learned that I can be frugal. During this time I went day by day thinking and worrying if i would EVER get out of this funk. How can I possibly? The job market is bad and I'm living in a state I know nothing about. I know a limited amount of people. The people are different, the weather is different, driving is different. OMG! Where I have I ended up?! Some days I just want to give up, crawl under a rock and die! Give up. But I'm not a quitter. I can't give up. I must continue forward, it's my life and I need to do this for me. I am responsible for my own happiness. Everyone and everything else are extra perks, my support and my strength. I will never give up on happiness....... I have worked hard for it..... I deserve it.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

So is crying good for you?

I found this article very interesting. I'm a crier. Ask my children. I cry at the drop of a hat. Lately it seems like I cry when the wind blows. I personally find crying very tiring and I'm tired of it! Thought about it all day today and came to a decision that I will cry a lot less in the near future. The side effects of crying are not pretty. bags under your eyes, dark circles, runny nose etc . makes you wanna cry!

Monday, March 7, 2011

It's a start of a new week

All day long I have been thinking about what this new week will bring me. Of course, I can hope and dream that everything goes exactly how I want it to but as we all know, it won't. It most likely won't.

I hear all the time that God has a plan and I'm sure he does. It would be so helpful if he could just clue me in on it so I wouldn't spend the majority of my day wondering what's going to happen next. For now, we sit and wait. Like a lion, waiting for it's prey.

Most of us often try and do the right things in our lives. We do things for others out of love expecting nothing in return but let me tell you, when it comes back to you without expecting it, it makes you feel blessed. Let us understand how this all works. In the most unexpected moments it gives us hope and gives us a new perspective on this pay it forward thing. Yesterday, I had a very emotional moment. Well, I have a lot of them but this one really touched my heart. I was blessed with generosity from some very special people in my life. I am forever thankful and grateful for that and I made it well known how it made me feel. I was then reminded of a good deed I had done many many years ago and it makes helping others and the giving of yourself so worth it!

Hope all of you have a blessed day.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Online chatting

So today I'm having some trouble getting motivated. It's rainy out and I just feel like curling up on the couch and watching movies all day. At the end of the day I know it will feel like a wasted day.

I love the rain! The crisp clean scent it leaves behind. Makes me want to put some beef stew in the crock pot. Unfortunately it looks like a maruchan kind of day!

I've been chatting with a few people online the past few weeks. Looking for insight on life's challenges. I find it interesting how we are willing to talk to complete strangers about our lives and yet we can't even talk to our family and friends sometimes. Is it the anonymity that makes us open up? Or is it that the circumstances in our lives give us that connection? And why do we tend to listen to the advice or comments they purpose? Funny thing, for the most part one comes away feeling stronger. Ready to take on the world!

I'll work on that tomorrow...........

Saturday, March 5, 2011

March 5th 2011

"How do any of us decide to leave the people we love?"

So Parenting is not always a walk in the park. I've been a parent of 3. Most of us make choices to do what we feel is right for our certain circumstance. Are they always the right choices? How do we know? What was your choice and why?

Friday, March 4, 2011

Never too late!

March 4th, 2011

Currently I’m in a situation where I am living with my youngest daughter and her family. I have a Grandson. He’s almost 11 months old. He’s an absolute doll. He makes me laugh and makes my heart glow when he looks at me and smiles from ear to ear!

It takes me back to when my children were babies. How I wish I could turn back time. I would so do things differently. But who would have known. I missed so much! Time does fly, and as we get older it seems to go faster. My eldest daughter has three beautiful girls. She often finds herself a little overwhelmed being a stay at home Mom. I can only offer her my advice. I remind her that soon these little girls will grow and will venture out on their own lives. Nothing is more important than spending quality time as a family. There will always be laundry to do, dishes to wash and bills to pay. But they will only be little once…… Take those moments, embrace them, enjoy them and when they are grown and gone, you can get back to the laundry, dishes and bills. That will never change! Certain things happen in our lives that will snap us back. For some of us we feel like it’s too late, for me it has made me want to change my life to be a part of theirs. More importantly, remember this…. It is they who will choose our rest home!

I have a lot of time on my hands at this point. My head spins with thoughts of good times I have shared with my family and friends. Wondering if I will ever have that again. One thing I do know for sure, without God and my loving family and friends, I don’t know where I would be. I have come to realize that only I can make that happen for me.